Catch up

Time has flown by in last few months and whilst I feel a bit as if I've been running to keep still when I look back I realise that I have moved forward.
This week is first week that I've felt settled into job. At the time I didn't realise the damage that working at NR had inflicited on me, my confidence in myself and my trust in those I work with had been undermined. My main plus factor with my current job is the feeling that no one is watching over me.
I have also had my 50th birthday. This has taken some coming to terms with. All those things about feeling younger inside now have new meaning to me. I am also aware that when people said that to me in the past I tended to think - okay you feel xx but just look in the mirror love. The only plus side is that anyone who didn't know is genuinely surprised and normally think I'm nearly 10 years younger. But I feel that I should have achieved something concrete by now, instead I feel I've drifted through life without understanding it and only now are things starting to make sense and it's too late in the day for me to change my course - I have too many responsiblities and have lost the fun of living.

Image above was taken on trip to Venice, it was as good as I expected I just wish I'd brought some presents for me. I would like to go back one day but there are also so many other places I want to see.