Today is ....

On Friday I left. As last day's go it wasn't bad. They gave me a purpley, pink orchid which I wasn't expecting and was a nice surprise. I feel relieved that it's over. At the moment I'm a bit euphoric and slightly afraid of the down which I know must come.
Today is .... it's a cliche from the 70's, my youth, time in my orange and white bedroom looking forward to a brighter tomorrow. Now I'm here. And it's my children's futures which I am looking forward to. I want them to see a future without limits. When Kieran was born he stretched out to find out where the boundaries were. In his cot he wriggled up so that his head touched the top of his crib. Why aren't we satisfied till we touch the boundaries? Why do I crave security?
Today is ... nearly over and already I'm making plans for tomorrow. Experience tells me that tomorrow will come. It might not be like I expected but it will happen. It's the day after tomorrow that I'm not ready for yet.

good things do happen - everyday

I have decided to try and list the good things that have happened - no matter how small.

Surpise meeting with Allison when I parked car.
Agreed with Eve that we all met up for 22nd for lunch.
Brought theatre tickets for 3 sisters.
Had pleasant day at work.

what do I want to do?

Looking for another job and I feel like a jack-of-all-trades rather than master-of-one. I either see a job and become as excited as Bottom in Midsummer Night's Dream, where he tries to play every role in the mechanicals' little play, or I feel "if only I had studied more or opted for that path earlier I to could be "a master brick-layer" or whatever". My priorities have changed. I want a job that fits around my family-life, I want extra holidays to spend with the boys, I want an interesting job that ends when I go home and I want a reasonable salary. In return I will do the best job I can, I will be dependable and responsible, I will learn any new skills necessary.

Somewhere, out there, is the prefect job for me - I'm now calling it home