Another new year!

When I was young I couldn't wait to grow up. Grown ups could do lots of exciting things. Nowadays I wonder why I was in such a rush, I don't think I appreciated being young, having few responsibilities and no one depending on me. Of course it didn't feel like that than. So my new year's resolution is to appreciate the now, or live in the moment, so far it's proving harder than I expected. Partly because I'm experiencing a tiredness which may be due to time of year, a virus, work-related, or just that I've been overdoing things. Whatever. The thing I'd most like to do at the moment is hibernate. Snuggle into a warm duvet and sleep till spring. In order to inspire myself into action I've been planning the decoration of my sons' bedrooms, not really living in the moment is it? The problem is that I spend most of my time doing things I'd rather not be doing, which isn't how I envisualized being grown up at all!
Someone asked me the other day about my dreams for the future and I suddenly realized that I didn't have any. Maybe that's my first move towards being aware of the present?
However there is one dream that I haven't yet realized, or let go of, visiting Venice for my 50th birthday.